My dearr friend :)

have you ever had that friend that lived really far away and you like never got to see?
well i do and to be honest it drives me nuts! Not that i don't have friends that live near me, i do and they are wonderful, and i love them very much.
       But there are times when I feel like this person just understands a little bit better, and i know she wont judge me, but instead make me laugh. She is an incredible person, and she always makes me feel better.

 She is what i would like to call my best friend who lives like 100 miles away.
she is also beautiful, smart, amazingly talented (she will be a star someday) and i look up to her in many ways!

   I love the fact i can talk to her about almost anything, and the truth is even thought we have only met in person like 3 times, i can talk to her for hours, and never run out of things to talk about. Its been about a year since i have known her, and she is a huge inspiration to me. I hate the fact that she lives like 2 hours away, and i hate the fact i dont get to see her very often. Im just going to move in to her basement, if she likes it or not. I am sure she knows who she is but for all who dont,
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.... Alina davis, i miss you horribly! you are a really amazing friend, i just wish i could see you more often.
I'm really glad i got to meet you, and spend some time with you. im also glad that we have a puppy, and named her Emma Nicole. I love our inside jokes, and i plan on sharing them at your wedding. And i want to go on a road trip to find that guy for you, we shall have a man hunt! i also find it quite funny all the things you do in your sleep. Thanks for always being there when im not in the best mood and for always ending our conversations with alaugh, even if it is about people being 1//3rd gay, or me being dead and not alive.

Thanks for being a friend!  

popularity whats that?

so the last couple of days ive kinda just stepped back and taken a look at my life, and to be honest, i annoy myself. There are so many things that i try to change that dont need to be changed because they dont matter. I mean, they matter to me now, but in 5 or 10 years, who is going to remember them. Such as who my friends are, do friends matter, yes, but should you dwell over who you are and aren't friends with? I'm thinking not.
     Are you even really going to be close in 10 years with allof your High School friends, probably not. So why is it so big now, because we are so much in to our image and what people think, that we just have to be in the popular crowed?
   what makes somebody popular? is it the clothes they were? the way they look?   what does it take to be called popular?
   Popularity seems to be the only thing that matters to us today, what is it going to take to make people realize it doesnt matter what people think about us.
  
      to be honest, there is no popular group, its just a group of people who society has set standards to and said here be like them, dress like them, talk like them, and look like them. and frankly, it drives me nuts. 25 years down the road even the "perfect models" (who are edited by the computer before put in to a magazine to make them look better) are not going to be so perfect anymore.

so what exactly is popular?

Entering in to the world of blogging.

So to start off i really dont know why im even doing this. I love writing, but when it comes to expressing myself and feelings, i am horrible. I dont journal, because i can never remember to do it. so this could be fun.  so i guess i should probably start by sharing a little bit about who i am and what im about.  well its my senior year, which is totally exciting, but also kind of scary knowing i only have this year until i get put out in the "real" world. college, getting a job, starting a life of my own, its all exciting. But having no idea where i will end up, is slightly scary, actually its horrifying. I still feel like a kid, i love coloring, and playing with clay, i like to make shapes out of clouds, and then make other people see them too! :-) i absolutely adore looking up in to the night sky and seeing millions of stars, its astonishing! And im not your typical girl, i would much rather go out and play in the mud and rain, rather than go get my hair and nails done, in fact i hate getting my nails done. But all in all, its really not so bad.